Things I’ll Never Say

A beautifully raw coming-of-age story for fans of Becky Albertalli and Julie Murphy, examining what it means to crush on your two best friends at the same time.

Ten years ago, the Scar Squad promised each other nothing would tear them apart. Even when Casey Jones Caruso lost her twin brother Sammy to an overdose, and their foursome became a threesome, the squad picked each other up. But when Casey’s feeling for the remaining members—Francesca and Benjamin—develop into romantic attraction, she worries the truth will dissolve them.

Casey tries to ignore her heart, until Ben kisses her at a summer party, and Frankie kisses another girl. Now Casey must confront all the complicated feelings she’s buried—for her friends and for the brother she’s totally pissed at for dying. Since Sammy’s death, Casey has spilled all the things she can no longer say to him in journals, and now more than ever, she wishes he were here to help her decide whether she should guard her heart or bet it all on love, before someone else decides for her.

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“All at once heart wrenching and heartwarming. The pages can’t turn fast enough. An intimate portrayal of grief and all the love and confusion that comes with it, Things I’ll Never Say is a must-read for readers who love big feelings books!”
—Ashley Schumacher, author of Amelia Unabridged

“I felt like I was back home by the beach. The way Casey explores grief hurt my heart, but the way she experiences love massaged it.”
—Francina Simone, author of Smash It!

“Beautiful and poignant. The book I needed at seventeen, but am glad to have now.”
—Charish Reid, author of Hearts on Hold

“Beautifully written, voicey, and raw. Things I’ll Never Say will leave you feeling like you’ve read a close friend’s private journal, and it reminds us to not let fear rob the little time we have to dive fully into loving ourselves and others. This is a powerful and essential debut everyone should read.”
—Rebecca Sky, author of Arrow Heart

“Cassandra Newbould will capture your heart on every page and you’ll fall head over heels for this emotional and gripping coming of age story. Things I’ll Never Say is a love letter to friendship, love, and finding hope after hopelessness. Casey is a character who made me laugh, cry, and remember summer nights. I couldn’t put it down!”
—Denise Williams, author of The Fastest Way to Fall